Domestic Geek

The art show last night was ok. It was good seeing people I hadn't seen in awhile. It's kind of sad seeing less art and more nursing school stuff. I wonder how long it will be before the graphic desgin program is totally gone. I'll be really surprised if there even is an art show next year. I guess we'll see.

Dad and I went out to the cemetary this morning to visit mom's grave. I spaced that they would be doing stuff out there at Fort Logan commemorating Veterans Day today. We stopped at BeauJo's for lunch on the way back. Those stuffed mushrooms I love so much were on a happy hour appetizer special of only $2.00, I got an order of them all to myself. YUM! I want to know how to make those. I can't quite recreate them. *sigh*

My neck is jacked up. I don't know what I did to it, but I was in so much pain this afternoon that I felt like I would puke everytime I stood up. It hasn't hurt this bad in a long time. I spent the afternoon on a heating pad watching X-Men 3: The Last Stand. I really wanted to do some cross stitch right now, but my neck hurts too bad to hold my head up right to work on it.

The weekend manager at my new job can use my help on her shifts, so I'm going to go in tomorrow to get a few extra hours. Yay for some more hours and some more experience. That will help since I'm not making squat with paid blogging right now.

With Christmas a mere six weeks away, I'm going to have to find some sort of part time retail or something to do in the evenings. I need to get my car fixed and registered so that I can quit using Marcus' other vehicle. I need to pay Marcus back the money I've borrowed. I need to get my bills caught up. My student loan that I put into forbearance will kick in again soon. *sigh*

I still can't find that template that I wanted to use for my wordpress installation. I went through all of my history and didn't come across it. I must have seen it more than a week before I started looking for it. Dang, there are a lot of wordpress template sites out there and most the designs SUCK!

OK, I'm gonna finish watching the episode of 24 (season 3) that I'm in the middle of and head to bed.

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I'm usually really good at remembering holidays and special events. This year, totally missed Marcus' and my 14th anniversary. Yep, we celebrate our "anniversary" on October 28th. It was the date in 1992 that Marcus and I officially became a couple (even though we had been seeing each other for almost 3 months). With everything else that has been going on recently, the date slipped my mind. In fact, all of October is kind of a blur. Anyway, I just wanted to say how lucky I am to have found him and also say:

I got an email this afternoon from a company I interviewed with waaaay back before I even lost my last job:

Hello LaDonna,
You interviewed with me here at XXXXXX XXXXXXXX a few months back and I wanted to check with you to see if you found a Graphics position or not. We will have an opening soon and I thought would inquire to see if you were available or still had an interest in doing Trade Show large format graphic design.

Dammit! This was slightly amusing yesterday what I got that phone message, but this is downright infuriating! So now that I've actually now have, all my past interviews are going to come out of the woodwork with offers of employment? Grrrrrrrr!

I've been in a little bit of a funk this morning. Laura writing about our CollegeAmerica experience this morning in conjunction with just finding an old digital diary I kept at that time (things I couldn't/didn't want on my blog because it was too personal and friends and family read it) made me realize really how stagnant my life has been. That whole period of my life was six years ago and things are just as bad, in fact they are worse, than they were then. I knew then that I was in a bad rut. I kept telling myself what I needed to do to get out of it.

Why am I so afraid and resistant to the changes I need to make to really get what I want and be happy? I've written before about how I believe that your thoughts create your reality. I catch myself in the midst of negative thinking all the time. I wish I knew when I started doing that, but it needs to stop right now. I look at all the stuff I need to do around here and think, "I'll never get all of this finished." So, I never start and it never gets finished. I think, "Nobody is going to ever want to hire me again" and I create that. "I'll never have the money to do..." whatever it is and I don't have any money. I know thinking positively is a practiced skill. I have a lot of good in my life and the only thing stopping me from getting more good things is me.

I've decided to start another blog where I can start documenting the progress and changes I'm making. I will not allow woe there. I'll link to it when I get it up and running. I'm thinking of using wordpress so that I can become more familiar with that platform. I still have dreams of doing some kind of my own business. Making blogs pretty is fun. Once I find a day job, maybe I can do some freelance blog design as extra cash. I don't want to do it as my sole source of income.

As for good news, I have an interview on Monday at Marcus' place of employment for their prepress department. Although Marcus at one time said we could never work for the same company again, this could work. He wouldn't be my boss and my hours might possibly be different from his. I definitely wouldn't see much of him. So, send positive job-getting vibes my way, please. Thanks!

OK, I've got to go check the mail for my last unemployment check and go get some rabbit food. I'll be back later!